My quote for this week: If I were to wish for anything, I should not wish for wealth and power, but for the passionate sense of the potential, for the eye which, ever young and ardent, sees the possible. Pleasure disappoints, possibility, never. Soren Kierkegaard
My dearest friends, I must admit that the reason I haven't been posting is I'm totally lost in expressing myself these days. I feel stuck and often sad...and me, being the sunshine I like to be, don't want to post negativity. But the sun came out today, so I'm desperately seeking to push my own soul out of the clouds.
I think part of what happens is that Boise is in the valley, so we get inversions...the clouds get trapped and we don't see the sun for weeks! And, me being a sunshine girl, gets so sad without my sun...so I walk around extremely tired and unmotivated (so unlike me)...and I must say I wander...and wandering causes me grief because I have no focus or direction...and I end up wasting this precious time I've been given. So, to you, I'm shucking this blanket of woe, and I shall find the sun peaking through my day...
This week, I did a Community Education class with my daughter in altered books. I actually tore a page out of a book! You laugh, but it was really difficult, as I LOVE books so much. But my husband promised me that the book was really in need of an alter...We actually played with paint and messed it around. The part that felt the best to me was that we did something called a ROUND ROBIN. We each tore a page out of our books and chose a theme we wanted it to be, painted and added a little something; then at the 5 minute mark, she had us switch pages with someone. My daughter was my partner, so it felt safe. Besides, she makes everything look great anyway! Then after another 5 minutes, we switched again. This made me nervous, because now I was working on a page of someone I didn't know and I was worried I would ruin it....when I was done, I actually gave it to someone else to give to her so she wouldn't know it was me...but honestly, I heard her say how much she liked it...hurray! What did this teach me? I have to put myself out there and take chances...and that if my art goes through an "ugly" stage, to have faith, because even writing has ugly stages, and I can get through it. My page turned out pretty cool...it stills needs some things...but this was a quick job with no materials but a few scraps!
The other thing I learned? Is I'm afraid of ruining these great collections of pictures and quotes I have. I "might" someday "need" them for something or I might ruin them and not create something great with them and lose them forever, then what? Isn't that silly? You know what it makes me? a pack rat! YIKES! That's my dad, not me...but alas, I've realized it is me...so yesterday, I actually took some magazine pages and pasted them IN MY BOOK...and painted...it was cool! Thanks for listening to my art adventure...hope to have more, and even more successes.
ENJOY your blessed Sunday...thanks for being my sunshine today.
It has been really rainy here this winter and I've lost focus as well. I just recently started feeling better and it is because the season is changing. The sun is spending more time with me :) I know what you mean to feel like a wanderer. I'm glad you pasted pictures in your book and painted! :)
Posted by: Valaine | February 12, 2009 at 10:59 PM